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Thursday, May 29, 2008
It is difficult to watch this young man self-destruct. It is difficult to speak to his mother and try to explain that where he is right now is a direct result of his own actions, and that we all need to stick to our guns if we are going to help him to take responsibility for his actions and help him to be a productive adult. Thank you for being he guiding force in all the conversations I have had with his mother. I know that You often keep my mouth closed. In the natural, I want to run screaming and pulling my hair out. I know that You are with me, and for that I am grateful.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
This is an uncomfortable passage from scripture. It says that sometimes God's answer to our pleas, even if we say please, is NO. I know many Christians who believe what I refer to as "feel good theology." They believe the "God wants you to be wealthy" ideas of some of today's preachers. When they do not become wealthy, or they have difficulties, they wonder what they did wrong. They are judged as "not being good enough," or as being in sin.
My own understanding of God is different than this. It is my understanding that God loves us. We are called to know, love, and serve Him in this world so we can be happy with Him in heaven. This does not mean that we will have everything. This does not mean we will never suffer. This does not mean that we will never have hurtful or disturbing events in our lives. Indeed, we are told that we are blessed if we are hated for His name's sake.
I think of Job whenever I am inclined to feel sorry for myself. Sometimes I still rail a bit against whatever I perceive as "unfair." Often I wish the Lord would show me a little of the plan. He tells us in Jeremiah 29:11 that He has a plan for our lives. He tells us throughout scripture "be not afraid."
Please help me to not fear. Help me to trust in You. I want to be the mother and wife that You desire me to be, Lord. I want to live Your plan. I want to be in Your will for me. Thank for helping me to love the family You have given me. I recognize that love is an action word, not a feeling, Lord, and that each day I can choose to love or not.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Tomorrow I plan to see my mother for a while.
I received my mother's day gift this past Monday when my DH said it was time to replace my old, dead van. My old Plymouth Voyager had seen better days. On Good Friday (at noon, no less....) it started to leak antifreeze. Our mechanic took a look at it and said that the water pump needed to be replaced, but what concerned him more was the oil he discovered in the cooling system. This indicates only bad things in an automobile. He said it was his professional opinion that it would cost more to fix than the van was worth, and it would only nickel and dime us to death from here on out. We opted to not fix it, but that meant that I was pretty much a home body since then. The amount of freedom we have when we have a vehicle is incredible. I did not realize just how much time I spent outside our home until I couldn't go anywhere.
My "new" car is another used mini van, also a Plymouth Voyager, only newer than the last one. It rides very nice, and gets me easily from point a to point b. I am very grateful to have it.
Thank you for the gifts of friends, family and freedom. Thank you for helping me to learn to love my family where we are at, and indeed, to love the family I have. Thank you for the gift of a loving husband who treats me like a princess in Your kingdom.
Friday, May 02, 2008
Congratulations, girls! Go out and continue to be witnesses!
Traditionally, children who are First Communicants for the year are chosen to crown Our Lady. This year, we had 2 children in our group. One is my dear friend Mary's daughter, and the other was my own dear YDS. My friend's daughter is very tiny for her age, so she carried the crown during the procession, and my YDS actually climbed the ladder to place the crown on the head of our Blessed Mother. All the little ones processed in the church and placed flowers in a vase at Our Lady's feet.
Father Henry Dorsch, who will celebrate his 40th year as a priest later this month, is so very kind in allowing us use of his parish's church and hall each month. He has a true devotion to Our Lord in the Blessed Sacrament, and each month he takes the time to teach the children how to behave at adoration, and how to pray. We are truly blessed by this wonderful man who shepherds with love and kindness. Father enjoyed the May crowning and took photos of the event.