Wednesday, March 26, 2008

On Love

I have been reflecting on love. Love, as our society sees it, is hearts and flowers and googly eyes. It is a warm, fuzzy feeling inside. Truth be told, Love is not any of those things. Love is an action, a choice. We can choose each day to love. This is frequently not easy. Our spouses do things which irritate us. They do things trying to help us out, but they do not do it OUR way. Our children are disobedient or disrespectful. They rebel. They do things which we have forbidden. They reject our beliefs, and sometimes they reject us. When all of these things happen, we can CHOOSE to gripe and grumble and throw our hands in the air, or we can choose to love.

Loving does not mean lying on the floor like a doormat. It does, however, mean accepting our families, our friends, even strangers, as people who are made in the image and likeness of God just as we are. It is realizing that despite all of the faults and foibles of those around us, God loves them as he loves us, and He calls us to “love one another as I love you.”(John 15:12b) This is our Lord’s call to action. It is not a passive, wishy-washy “love” feeling. It is what Christ showed us by example as He walked among us.

Our Lord fed the hungry, gave drink to the thirsty, forgave the sinful. These are all things that we are called to do in the great commandment of “love one another.” These actions are the visible sign of Christ’s love in us.

I know that I am frequently guilty of having a “poor me” mentality. I feel like a martyr when my family expects things of me. I throw my internal “hissy fits” when asked to do something I do not wish to do, and I give the deep audible sighs of one who is aggravated. I can only beg forgiveness of those around me for my impatience and ingratitude for the gift of them in my life and try each day to rededicate myself and my actions to our Lord. God-willing, I will get better at it as time goes on.

Dear Lord,
Thank you for the opportunity to reflect on Your words. Thank you for the gift of my family. Please help me today to be the mother and wife You would have me be. Help me to be patient and kind and loving to those whom You have placed in my care.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Happy and Blessed Easter!

Friday, March 21, 2008

A contest

There is a contest going on at The Company Porch. They are giving away My-Word-Magnets from Kidtronic. These look like an excellent tool for teaching early reading and reinforcing beginning readers. I am entering!

Dear Lord,
This looks like an excellent tool for homeschooling. Thank you for the opportunity to enter the contest and for the generosity of the people who provide the prize.

Monday, March 17, 2008

A little weepy

It is St. Patrick's Day. although the Holy See actually moved the feasts of St. Patrick and St. Joseph to the 14th and 15th of March for this year as no feasts can be celebrated during Holy Week. We are anticipating Easter. Despite these reasons for joy, I am having a weepy night.
I am missing my older two children who have both moved out. I spoke to my mother and my oldest son is doing pretty well although his vision and speech are still pretty heavily affected by the brain injury. My mom said that they went out to dinner with ODS last week, and he is moving around really well. He only has therapy for his vision now. He is still having occasional difficulty connecting words into a complete thought. I guess he has been cleared to look for a job and he has been working out at a gym with his uncle.

My ODD is another story. She seems to have stopped talking to all of her family...not just me. I really miss her.

I think I am having some "empty nest" feelings even though there are still 5 children here.

Today is also the 10th anniversary of my grandmother's passing. I was not very close to her, but she was so steady that I have missed her terribly in these ten years.

My heart aches for the children who are no longer living in my home as well as the ones who are here. My YDS is so sweet most of the time, and he so terribly misses all those people who have left him in the last 2 1/2 years. He misses his Memere and Pepere and his brother and sister. When ODD stops in to visit he clings to her when she is leaving. I can see that he could really have a problem later on in life with a fear of abandonment. Please protect him and hold him in Your loving arms. Please protect ODS and ODD as they venture out in the world. May they know Your love in their lives and stop buying the lies of the world. Touch my step sons hearts as well, Lord. They are so lost and angry, even if they think they are not.


Saturday, March 08, 2008

Is it just me....

or does anyone else not understand the whole "women should be priests", etc? Personally, I feel that women have many important roles and that the priesthood is not one of them. I don't like to see girls serve as alter servers, either. Of course, my husband and I are members of the few who still believe that if at all possible, a parent should be home for the children. In our case, I stay home.

Now, I have not always stayed at home. I am an LPN by trade, and I am capable of earning decent money if I work. The cost to our family, however, would be enormous. When I did work outside the home and try to do all the "mom stuff" as well, I was a wreck. There were not enough hours in the day to complete everything. I was grumpy and short with the children. DH finally had enough one day and told me to quit my job. I did not need to be told twice. I gave my two weeks notice the next day.

Of course, there are many people in our lives who do not understand the choices we have made. My DH has heard many times that I should get a job to help out so he doesn't have to work so hard. My parents have told me that we should put our children in school and I should "get a little job." What many of these people don't understand, though, is that there is really no such thing as a "little" nursing job. In the world of nursing you can be compelled to stay overtime if there is a weather situation which makes it difficult for the next shift to get to work (I actually had to stay and work 24 hours once because of a blizzard.) You can also be compelled to stay if there is a disaster of any kind. This could be a bad accident, a natural disaster of some sort, an explosion.... On top of that, there is a huge amount of responsibility in nursing.

Well, that is my rant for tonight.

Thank you for today. It was a very peaceful day, and I so needed a peaceful day. Thank you for answered prayers and prayers that I am still waiting for an answer on. Thank you for teaching me patience.


Friday, March 07, 2008

wow...a month since I last posted

This past Sunday I attended a Catholic Women's Conference in my diocese. The first speaker was Fr. Benedict Groeschel. If you ever have the opportunity to hear this dynamic man speak, take it! Fr. Groeschel was the reason I attended the conference. The other speakers did not entice me at all.

The second speaker was the author, Lorna Kelly. I missed most of her talk because I was waiting to meet Fr. Groeschel and have him sign a copy of one of his books. I caught the end of Ms. Kelly's talk, and what I heard was entertaining and gave some insight into Mother Theresa.

The final speaker was an SSJ. I must admit that the moment I see SSJ after a woman's name, I am wary. I don't know if it holds true across the country, but SSJ's in this area are very liberal. They are the women who think women should be priests, etc.

I really, really tried to be open minded and to listen to the talk this SSJ gave. The title of her talk was Touchstones of Grace. After the definition of touchstones, I did not find anything in her talk to be relating to touchstones. She was extremely boring; so much so that many of the women who remained in the auditorium were actually asleep. Many women got up and left during her talk. She dropped a lot of names (I remember Baudelaire several times in particular), but there was no substance to the talk for me. She really totally lost me when she started talking about Hindus and Buddhist monks in saffron robes. There may have been a more appropriate time and place for her talk, but in my opinion a Catholic Womens' Conference was not it.

There was adoration in the afternoon. There was also something called "the Hem of the Robe" service in which the Blessed Sacrament is carried among the people (much as Christ walked among the people). We were told that many healings have occurred at services such as this. It was really beautiful. The day ended with Mass. Our Bishop presided. Our Bishop seems okay, but he is a bit PC. He was assigned here because of his reputation as a no nonsense guy when our diocese was in the middle of scandal. There has been less scandal since he took over, but things seem a bit sterile. Of course, maybe that is because I am seeing the politics. It never ceases to amaze me the our Heavenly Father loves us enough to continually give us opportunities to rise to the occasion or fall down and need to be picked up again.

Sorry for rambling.

May God Bless anyone reading this.

Dear Lord,
I believe that there are times when even the best speaker will not be remembered if what they are saying is not what You want me to hear. Please speak to my heart and help me to know Your will.