Friday, May 11, 2007

Happy Mother's Day!

Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunization.
Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on, Wet on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom - I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

I don't know who wrote this, but it certainly gets to the heart of motherhood in so many ways.

Lord,
Thank you for giving me the awesome opportunity to be a mom. Please forgive me for all the times I have not taken this responsibility seriously, and all the times I have failed you by failing my children. Thank you for all the wonderful women in my life who are moms. Please bless them this Mother's Day.

Amen.

1 comment:

Ebeth said...

Christine, Thanks for your kinds words over at my blog. I am consoled in knowing that I am not alone in this territory. You are a brave Mom to have to endure the infrequent interaction with your son, I pray that changes and he will reconnect more fully. Our boys are special! Just scanning your blog, you and I have much in common, thanks for sharing! We can feel each other's pain...and still desire to be a Mom without a doubt!
Glad to have made your acquaintance!
Ebeth